2 days until the big trip
Dream as if you'll live forever and live as if you will die today -James Dean
When I first read this quote about a year ago it appealed to me greatly. It says everything I was taught and want to live up to by 2 great parents. I once asked my parents why did you sacrifice all your dreams and goals for us? Why raise children not even yours when it would have been easier to just walk away? They both said in their own words we may have sacrificed it all but when we see our kids biological or not accomplish every dream they ever had we will know then and only then that our lives and goals were never lost nor sacrificed.
With this type of environemnt a girl learns to dream big. I can still remember being this bossy little girl who knew it all since the day she was born begin to act out her dreams (being a teacher) and writing about her dreams. I wrote about my dream guy, my life goals, expectations for myself and my biggest dreams. 1 of my dreams was to travel the world and an expectation was to never forget who I am. To not live through someone else or be someone else but to be me. I decided 4 months ago to do something alone and for me and only me. I always worry so much about everyone else. I want everyone in my life to be happy and do all I can to help them. Sometimes I wear myself out. In all this I began to stray from my goals and expecations. To learn who I am and who I still want to become is key. I have learned you can not wait until someone else pushes you to your goals or wait for someone to accompany you though life to accomplish your goals but to do something for you. To learn who you are and to decide what you want to do and do it, is key in life. One of my biggest goals was to travel the world.
I decided 4 months ago "what the hell am I waiting for." This is how it all started. Now I am 2 days away from a great dream. To not read about Rome, or Paris or London but to actually be there. Not to imagine what it would be like to sit at an Italian cafe or french cafe and write, read or just people watch but to actually do it and be in the moment. To not imagine the smell of an old castle, the taste of fresh wine from the Tuscan hills, or see the real Michael Angelo and Mona Lisa but to actually experience it. This is a great dream I am about to embark on. To all the people who love and care about me I have created this Blog. I have been asked so many times are you afraid, send pictures, send me a post card. I thought by creating this Blog those who care about me could travel along with me virtually and spirtualy. Please keep me in your thoughts, prayers, or meditations as I embark on an adventure of a life time so far away from those I love. To a continent where I know no one. Keep checking my blog and I will try to update daily or as much as possible instead of e-mailing everyone. I am so fortunate there are so many I love and who love me and have asked that I stay in contact. If I e-mail everyone I may be e-mailing all day and defeat my purpose. Thanks guys for your support and love. Come back and visit my Blog to see what I am up to(thanks Kimberly for the Blog idea). I am going to also try to post pictures if I have the equipment there to do so :).
Love,
Martha
"You will come back with a sense of accomplishment and somethings you just need to do alone."- The best summary of what I wanted to say and want to accomplish from someone who only knew me for about an hour. A new friend thanks David.
When I first read this quote about a year ago it appealed to me greatly. It says everything I was taught and want to live up to by 2 great parents. I once asked my parents why did you sacrifice all your dreams and goals for us? Why raise children not even yours when it would have been easier to just walk away? They both said in their own words we may have sacrificed it all but when we see our kids biological or not accomplish every dream they ever had we will know then and only then that our lives and goals were never lost nor sacrificed.
With this type of environemnt a girl learns to dream big. I can still remember being this bossy little girl who knew it all since the day she was born begin to act out her dreams (being a teacher) and writing about her dreams. I wrote about my dream guy, my life goals, expectations for myself and my biggest dreams. 1 of my dreams was to travel the world and an expectation was to never forget who I am. To not live through someone else or be someone else but to be me. I decided 4 months ago to do something alone and for me and only me. I always worry so much about everyone else. I want everyone in my life to be happy and do all I can to help them. Sometimes I wear myself out. In all this I began to stray from my goals and expecations. To learn who I am and who I still want to become is key. I have learned you can not wait until someone else pushes you to your goals or wait for someone to accompany you though life to accomplish your goals but to do something for you. To learn who you are and to decide what you want to do and do it, is key in life. One of my biggest goals was to travel the world.
I decided 4 months ago "what the hell am I waiting for." This is how it all started. Now I am 2 days away from a great dream. To not read about Rome, or Paris or London but to actually be there. Not to imagine what it would be like to sit at an Italian cafe or french cafe and write, read or just people watch but to actually do it and be in the moment. To not imagine the smell of an old castle, the taste of fresh wine from the Tuscan hills, or see the real Michael Angelo and Mona Lisa but to actually experience it. This is a great dream I am about to embark on. To all the people who love and care about me I have created this Blog. I have been asked so many times are you afraid, send pictures, send me a post card. I thought by creating this Blog those who care about me could travel along with me virtually and spirtualy. Please keep me in your thoughts, prayers, or meditations as I embark on an adventure of a life time so far away from those I love. To a continent where I know no one. Keep checking my blog and I will try to update daily or as much as possible instead of e-mailing everyone. I am so fortunate there are so many I love and who love me and have asked that I stay in contact. If I e-mail everyone I may be e-mailing all day and defeat my purpose. Thanks guys for your support and love. Come back and visit my Blog to see what I am up to(thanks Kimberly for the Blog idea). I am going to also try to post pictures if I have the equipment there to do so :).
Love,
Martha
"You will come back with a sense of accomplishment and somethings you just need to do alone."- The best summary of what I wanted to say and want to accomplish from someone who only knew me for about an hour. A new friend thanks David.
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