I am coming home

Today was a nice day. I went to Stonehenge and this great little English countryside town called Bath. It has some old Roman baths still left behind. They were amazing to see but I was much more excited about this little town. It was so beautiful. The countryside is amazing. We had a great time. Then we walked by Buckingham palace and Big Ben to see it one last time at night. It was very nice. We then came to the Hostel and now I am going to pack and get ready for my flight.

Well, it was a bitter sweet day. I was excited yesterday about going home but today I felt so sad. I got a bit depressed. I did not want my time here to end. I feel so sad because I loved the experiences I had and feel I have so much more I want to experience and see. The world is to big and I feel I am running out of time. However, I am feeling ready to go home. See today I noticed for the first time I am so tired. I have been trying to see so much in such a short amount of time that I have really been pushing myself. I realized I sleep 5-6 hours and walk all day. I eat when I can and fast usually. Of course I do find those stolen moments when I have a good dinner or take time to just be present but most times I am trying to see and do it all. Today I could not stay awake while on the bus. I slept the whole time which made me mad because our Guide was telling us things about the sites we were visiting all I could think of was I wanted to be asleep. I would wake see the sights and enjoy them. AS soon as the bus turned on I was out. I am also so tired of seeing the same clothes. I think I will take my bag striaght to the donation center. I never want to see these clothes again. I am so tired of them. I wear the same things all the time. I want to get a pedicure, manicure, cut my hair and watch movies. After seeing Ewin I realized I really want to watch movies and just not feel rushed. However, the thought of me leaving and going back home also makes me feel worried about the next chapter I am about to enter. This chapter is ending and a new beginning. I am worried, fear but also excited about what the future will hold for me.
I want to end these entries with a huge Thanks to all of you who really read my entries, who wrote me and left me comments. You really don't understand how much those mean to me. I think because of you guys I was able to make this journey and not get so homesick. You guys kept me going. I knew I could be far away but you were still so close to me. There is this quote that says "True friends are never far away." For those who really cared and took the time to support me I know are my truest friends and I appreciate you so much. I can't wait to see you all again.
So I need dates for the movies. If you are interested please call me soon. Well after July 26th since I will be in Mexico by a beautiful beach till then. Movies!!!!!!!I want to see movies!!!!!!!! Any takers :)

"Somethings you just need to do alone." Best quote from my new friend David. I really needed this and I really learned so much about me that I could not do any other way. With certain people like my family and friends I have a roll I created. I feel I need to live up to that role. This gave me the chance to have no role, to be a blank slate and to realize who I want to be as a person. One loses their identity in certain situations and I think this gave me a chance to find out who I wanted to be.
"Dream as if you will live forever, and live as if you will die today." I think everyday since June2nd I have truely lived this quote and I am so proud of myself to be able to say that. I took every moment and tried to live it to the fullest. I tried to experience things not everyone can experience. I tried new things, I tried not to fear anything. I lived every day in the moment. Now I need a vacation :) Mexico here I come :). I hope that I will continue to live this way.
See you all very soon, and once I get back from Mexico I will post pictures :)